When I wake up I feel like I can’t breathe.. the first thing I think about when wake up is something from my past and I feel overwhelmed. So many thoughts … in life you either live or you die so it’s like I stop and think about which one am I doing. Can’t lie […]

When I wake up I feel like I can’t breathe.. the first thing I think about when wake up is something from my past and I feel overwhelmed. So many thoughts … in life you either live or you die so it’s like I stop and think about which one am I doing. Can’t lie most days it feels like I’m dying ; I think about dying everyday… what’s the point of really living if your not really LIVING don’t get me wrong I have good moments and memories that are worth holding close to my heart… but over all I feel life slowly slipping away from me I’m watching everything and everyone I love get out of my reach.. I put my headphones in and I slip into another world like I’m running from myself and I’m tired of running. So when you get tired of running you have to face what ever facts come…. I have a lot of darkness inside me. I suppose things will get better or worse … before I take life into my own hands and twist it until it pops.¬†

Enough

I really hate fighting with you, I be wanting to say all this shit to your face but I’m afraid that I’ll just break down and cry. I can barely look you in the eyes ; we both know our love ending came as such a big surprise, sometimes I want to die … But […]

Stop.

It’s hard because… I’m so mad but then all I can think about is kissing you. I love you I know that I do Stop don’t make me feel like I’m crazy .. My heart races when I hear your voice. It’s like a thousand butterflies flying around my heart.Wait Stop don’t walk away cause […]

Random thoughts 

I always thought I’d experience heartbreak and I think I’m ready for it. I never am tho ; I sit here and I feel all this pain my heart throbbing and aching racing at such a fast pain and it hurts like crazy. I can barley breathe but still managed to breathe ; we have […]

We’re falling apart.

See We stay together because we’re afraid to lose each other … I hate the thought of you being with someone else and I’m sure you feel the same yet I don’t know how you feel but I’m sure you’ve been with someone else anyway. I keep thinking I’m holding on to love when I’m […]

I guess I’m not suppose to get another chance … I’ve fucked up all the other ones or maybe it’s the person that this isn’t suppose to happen with … I’m not sure I just know that it won’t happen and it’s not happening for me. It’s something I really want ; to be able […]